Happiness a fake stage of life Health not a reality in life Safety just an illusion in life Future just a hope in life We live now for money Money- A curse to mankind No time for family No time to sit and relax No time to call your parents No time to take a break No time to listen to your kids We want to conquer all Money- A curse to mankind Can you give nourishment to your kids? Can you give love to your kids? Can you cuddle a little with your kids? Can you enjoy the nature with your kids? Who you are rushing to defeat? Who you want to prove? Money- A curse to mankind Pause, rewind a little to see what you left behind Your happiness, your health, your kids You bank is full now, but no use for you No money can buy you health No money can buy your kids love No money can buy you companionship Look around and cherish what you have Pause a little, live a little, enjoy a little Money will one day make you lonely Money will leave you one day You will leave this world as you come Money- A curse to mankind A realization I learned by observations I am free now and content You can also be free and content Once you realize Money- A curse to mankind!
Doesn’t festivities filled with colors and joy scream home generally, even to those who aren’t pretty sentimental? This made me wonder, what do we actually miss when we say that we miss home? The building made of concrete, cement, marbles and what not? The building that gave a roof to our closest relatives for most part of growing up, irrespective of whether they were beautiful, kind, mean, loud or straight up annoying? The sheer abundance of tears, fights, joys and secrets it has witnessed does baffles me!
But, isn’t there more to it? When you plan a change, you prepare yourself to bid adieu to the things you love. You bring your yourself to come in terms with the big things. For instance, how small / big the new house relatively is or how congested or quiet the new city is! But, we forget to prepare ourselves to missing the kind neighborhood woman who always remembers to specially make you a piece of eggless cake during Christmas and how her baking fills the whole neighborhood divine!
I once read an intense poem in my school about a poetess visiting her abandoned ancestral house where she had lived with her grandparents as she was growing up. That poem stayed with me but I still dread to even think of my home as an empty, abandoned place where snakes moved! Maybe am the one who is too fragile or too attached to those pieces of bricks and mortar!
Every place that I have ever been to, has always given me a piece of itself to carry forever in exchange for a little piece of me. But, trust me, home remains special despite the imperfect shared history. Do you want to know the irony? I don’t like the concept of borders and believe that the sense of patriotism is overrated! How comfortably hypocritical! At the end of the day, what can I say except that am just a human being with highly intellectual ideals yet with a sloppy grip of them in real life. But, aren’t we all just flawed? Aren’t we all grappling to find a balance between what we consider ideal on paper and how we actually choose to live our lives? At least that is the belief that lets me sleep peacefully at nights.
I sometimes tell myself that the home is not what I miss but the people who lived there and memories of them. That I could have met that neighborhood woman anywhere. But, the fact remains that I didn’t meet her anywhere else and no better food at Christmas makes me crave less for the piece of bread she always made! Also, whenever I pass through her house , it still reeks of her warm baking smell that she had let the entire neighborhood bask in, long after she had gone.
If there is one thing that I could wish for, I would love to be a warm memory in the mind of at least one stranger, who adores telling the story of me repeatedly to people who are already annoyed at how many times they’ve heard of my story!
Freedom… My heart screams, You have it… My mind says. I don’t feel it… My heart says. Look around… My mind says. Empty… My heart says. Try hard… My mind says. Enough…! My heart says. Live… My mind says. Trying… My heart says. Slaves of modern age… We live… Really, we don’t. Slaves of life… Enjoy a little. Follow as it comes… Slaves still a reality… New forms… One day you break free, Door to heaven or hell… Still a mystery… Till then a slave…
Try… Experience… At least once. Love someone, To know the pain. Of existence… Of longing… Of loneliness… Love hard, To know you. Your boundaries. Judgement… It is not yours. You live with others. To write stories. To rewrite the ones… Already said many times. Mistakes create and forget, To make more mistakes. Love is poison… Pain is pure… You live to enjoy the pain. Of love and loneliness. Love an emotion… Yet to conquer… Thirst to love always linger. Pain is like labor pains, You forget once you find love. Again to create more pains. Passionate love quench thirst… Thirst returns in time… Wander again to find love. The pure pain. In everyone’s life….
Dear bird, will you come to me with love notes Where is my love bird to sing my heart notes Words I noted from my heart with heartbeat rhythm Tears filled eyes ready to overflow My songs and my life songs slave in pain Will you fly in to me as thousand petals Temptations flare in me alone with out restrictions All dreams shatter in time with pain Far away nice breeze move away with out touching me Body pains with out experiencing calmness Heart shivers with out any peace in sight Tear petals slowly caressed my cheeks Searched all over to find calmness in life Hoping to feel a breast with milk To feel again as a baby with no pain To sleep one more time with out stress To feel once more that loving touch of mother Lullaby from neighbor house marked a scar on pain Tear soaked pillows gave some coolness for burning heart Fell asleep to see the bird in dreams filled with kisses Danced to my tunes for me in dreams Heaven, I felt for a while just to realize Not my life Just fantasy we see in social media Realize people, social media paints only fake scenes Life, a complex phenomenon Open your eyes wide and see around you To realize life is beautiful for you Tears dry up once you see through Live your life, not others. Heart will melt and sooth you in time Like a mother, nature will embrace you Lullaby from neighbor house will enhance you Love bird will fly in as thousand petals Breeze will touch you again to re birth as human. Silence around you will become mystical tunes Start to live again…. Heaven.
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Happiness and Sadness. Two sides of a coin. I read somewhere today. Choose your hardships. The message is so beautiful. I felt compelled to write in my own way. What I learned from it. I am sharing here. Beauty of words can move you and forces you to change the way how you think. Today the message forced me to think in a different angle. More positive. I am glad I have this medium of blogging to let others know that it can change us. We need to change.
Recently I watched a documentary. I have to say this; I am not at all interested in documentary types or real life violence type. If I watch something terrible, it haunts me for a long period. Especially when I drive. My thoughts linger and I feel so bad. I often put myself in the victim’s shoes. This really sparks me to say a few things here. If those shows affect me negatively how much a person with those undesirable traits or mental health will get influenced? Why we have high viewership for these documentaries or shows? I urge everyone to watch shows like Friends, etc. Where you take your mind off from real life for a one hour or two. Laugh it out, people. Life is so short and we have many issues around us. Work, Family, Kids. We are surrounded by many challenges. When we have free time, why we watch these kinds of shows and put our mind in to more misery? I really don’t get it.
The show I am talking above is about a father taking his wife and his children’s life. Whatever reason he had, I am not bothered. But stuck with me is those kids faces and their last questions to their dad. Broke my heart and it still pains a lot. I still question myself, why I sat there and finished that documentary. Hope those kids are in a beautiful place up above enjoying the beauty of this world with out hardships.
Earlier I said, Choose your hardships, why in a what sense.
Marriage and work you put to cherish that relationship is hard. Getting divorce and going through that order is hard. Which hardship you will chose? Nothing is easy. It is up to us which hardship we should choose. Depression and living with that is hard. Going out and get help to come out of depression is hard. Which one you will chose? Buying a home and maintaining that home is hard. Living without a home and stay in uncertain is hard. Which hardship you will chose? Paying mortgage is hard. Paying rent is hard. Which hardship will you choose?
I laid out some examples only. But anything you want to achieve is hard and not having that is also hard. So why don’t you chose the hardship you want to earn and run with it. Friends, we can choose our hardships ourselves and we sure can get the dreams fulfilled. Spread only positive energy and life out there. Of course there is trouble and destructive energy there. Don’t focus on it. Watch movies, shows etc which gives you happiness to your mind. Refresh yourself and go back to your hardships. Soon those hardships will move out of your way, because the energy you radiate will outlast those hardships.
Thank you guys. Hope you will choose the right hardships from now on. Support my book if you love reading.
Now 8 months in to 2020. Is world trying to reset here? I wonder sometimes. I feel like a standstill everywhere. I want to think positive here. Why we are hearing so much bad news these days? I put together a few pointers here.
1) As a human being we took granted many things nature has provided to us.
2) We felt we are above everything. We developed this arrogance of saying we have knowledge.
3) We left our humbleness and abuse nature for our short-term gain/ happiness.
I can talk over and over on this topic. However, my point here is human beings are not anymore humans. They slowly have become someone who lost their respect for nature and its gifts. Somehow this entitlement feeling took over us. We behaved like we created all this. We created some perishable items and felt like supreme power. We ignored what nature had stored for us, which is not at all perishable. We ruined it by what we call “Life style or Modernization”
Think back, our forefathers they worked hard on land and lived on what the land provided to them. They never tried to destroy the land. They preserved the land for the future, which is what we got as a gift from them. Now what are we going to give our kids. RUINED and UNWORTHY land. I would like to call, We raped mother nature already so much that it has started now to retaliate.
Last few months from march, it gives us a shock treatment by nature. You call it china virus, or factory produced virus. Regardless, nature is taking a U turn here. No doubt. We see clear skies and clear water. Just simple 5 months, we already see this much difference, you can imagine how powerful this nature is.
Take all the incidents world all over, movement to positive is happening. BLM, Women empowerment, Me too, all leads to reset. I am glad to see people are finally coming together to do something for their kids meaningful. Once we worshipped water, fire and air. Now we don’t even give any value to these three necessities. We pollute nature as if we own these and we create these. Stop making fun of those individuals who pray to these elements. They understand the importance of those fundamental key things. These three keep us alive. I came from a part of the world where water is someday a luxury. I know the value of it. We had gone days without water. We also had gone days with the flood. I know the importance of taking care of nature. The only way we can give a healthy life to our future generation.
So friends, stop abusing the nature. Do what you can to help the nature.
This is my journey ofcourse. I want to be useful to society in many ways I can be. Yes, I am a law abiding citizen. I do try to give good positive thinking in a creative way here and there. I felt that I should do more. With that, I have started this You Tube channel. Very simple pattern. No video gimmicks with lots of fancy edits. Just raw me and my thoughts here. I will try to bring one story at a time to inspire you with life lessons. If you like, Please continue to watch.. Every Sunday new video will be out. Short and simple. Thank you.
This month is weird in all shape and form. Everyone who was behind Covid now comes to term with new norm. We tend to stay away from each other. We are no longer in hugging relationships. There is a hesitation in human affection. Yes. Folks we have changed. My mind is blank these days. I sat down many times this week to pen. Nothing came to my mind. This is strange for me. Last two years I have written, I never had this mental blank stage. I always had topics to write. Is this because we are not experiencing the life like before?
My father told me once, A good writer is one who have many life experiences. They view life in a different angle than the ones who had less struggles to tackle. I did not understand until now.
I have seen many people putting out content just to speculate. Is covid real? Hey guys, people died because of this disease. Do you really need to know personally a few died in order to believe. I don’t understand why even argue. I heard radio hosts calling out to people to report back if they have known personally anyone who got Covid or died. Strange isn’t it. All these speculations when whole world is struggling. There are many people out there, who lost their livelihood because of this. Not a joke for us to make content on this one. This is not fair.
I heard one nurse called back to radio and she was furious. She went through hell to help people who had Covid. This is not easy once you get that disease. Yet, people and conspiracy theorist keep on making content on speculating. I am bit upset with these people. Yes, this has changed us a lot. We need to find ways to come out of it. Our economy has been tested to its limits. It will take many years to recover. Do not waste time on un necessary thoughts. Use your brain to help the society. These speculations are a waste and will not help society.
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